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| Apr 30, 2010 [13:04] | Graywolf65 |
These last couple of days have been rough. My greatest fear has come true. Not really sure who has my kids cell phone. They claim to be the kids biological grandmother on their biological father's side. Someone I thought was supportive of my deceased fiancee and I. But her recent comments had thrown me for a loop.
She stared off by referring to Native Americans as "savages." Then asked if I was one. And it got worse from there cause she asked for help to keep the kids from going to their uncle who lives in Canada. I am confused as to why she would bring this up. The kids and I have been in contact through their deceased mother's cell phone and have kept me up to date on the goings on. I was under the impression that the judge had stated they were to go there. That they were honoring my deceased fiancee's will.
All of this has me very confused as to what is really going on. I am not happy with what was said to me and I am scared of what will happen to the kids. What makes it worse is not knowing the truth. I love my fiancee and my kids (though they are not biologically mine and that when my fiancee and I were to wed, I was going to adopt them). I worry what will be the kids fate now that all the sudden I got these texts Monday. I know this has been also very hard on my Mom.
I am here asking for help with this matter. There was mention of a tribe in or around Hastings, Minnesota. That my kids were made members. That whoever it was that texted me mentioned about going to the tribal council to stop the kids from going to what they referred to as "the savages." I just want the truth about all of this. (Where my kids are really going, being able to keep in contact with them, getting the things my deceased fiancee stated in her will that was to go to me and to be able to visit my fiancee's grave). And I want closure.
All of this has stressed me out and I don't know what to do.
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| Mar 30, 2010 [17:29] | nashoba_chito23 |
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Jan 26, 2010 [12:27]
Jan 26, 2010 [12:33] updated |
WindSong |
I got up this morning, took a shower and got ready just like any other morning. I went into my sons bedroom to wake him up...
And this is what I saw:
MY SON ASLEEP WITH HIS GLASSES ON. It cracked me up so much I started laughing. I went back into the living room quickly and got my cell phone. I came back into his room and gave his cheeks little "Mama Kisses". And this is the face I got:
Along with that sweet little face, the first words out of his mouth were, "I love you Mom".. and my heart melted. Awwwwwww my handsome son. Don't you just love them when they are sleeping.. so innocent and cute. Reminds me of my daughter when she was little. This is her at her first birthday party:
And she went from that little precious person... To THIS:
Both of my beautiful children. Makes a mother so proud. There are times I worry about my son though. He is being raised without a father or a male figure in his life. I try very hard to show him love, but sometimes I worry it's too much love. I don't want him growing up to be a mama's boy or a wimp. I give him kisses a lot and tell him I love him a lot, because I love my kids very much and I want my son to grow up knowing and understanding love and how to show it. But I also want him to grow up being a man and not some sissy ass. It's hard to know the limit of how much love and affection to show him because of that. I want him to be a real man and a good man.. and not grow up treating women like slaves. I worry about this quiet often. I don't know if I will have another man in my life..I have been too hurt in the past.. and especially with this recent man that left. Parenthood is complex in the best of times.. but sometimes I wonder if I will be enough.
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MY SON ASLEEP WITH HIS GLASSES ON. It cracked me up so much I started laughing. I went back into the living room quickly and got my cell phone. I came back into his room and gave his cheeks little "Mama Kisses". And this is the face I got:
Along with that sweet little face, the first words out of his mouth were, "I love you Mom".. and my heart melted. Awwwwwww my handsome son. Don't you just love them when they are sleeping.. so innocent and cute. Reminds me of my daughter when she was little. This is her at her first birthday party:
And she went from that little precious person... To THIS:
Both of my beautiful children. Makes a mother so proud. There are times I worry about my son though. He is being raised without a father or a male figure in his life. I try very hard to show him love, but sometimes I worry it's too much love. I don't want him growing up to be a mama's boy or a wimp. I give him kisses a lot and tell him I love him a lot, because I love my kids very much and I want my son to grow up knowing and understanding love and how to show it. But I also want him to grow up being a man and not some sissy ass. It's hard to know the limit of how much love and affection to show him because of that. I want him to be a real man and a good man.. and not grow up treating women like slaves. I worry about this quiet often. I don't know if I will have another man in my life..I have been too hurt in the past.. and especially with this recent man that left. Parenthood is complex in the best of times.. but sometimes I wonder if I will be enough.
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| Me and Mine | viewed: 13 | Comments: 0 |
| Sep 9, 2009 [23:02] | lady_by_the_bay2009 |
Good evenin...juss thought i try a blog c how it goes...i will start tomorrow ok...
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| Aug 26, 2009 [11:44] | Meegwan |
Give it a try! - I'll give anything thing a try once I suppose. Blogging i'm talking about, and maybe this site....
I'm new to this site. A friend told me to give it a try and to be patient. I tried another site before - and literally got scared off. Met some nice people but also met some people who well just should not be roaming amongst us.
Being new is a tad scarey...not knowing what to do, or your way around the site. But I'm also new to this entire dating thing....havent DATED in years - and im having difficulty adjusting. Like who makes the first phone call after coffee...and is it wrong to want to hear your voice if I like you? Its not like it was 20 yrs ago I tell you.
Patient be patient is what I hear.....What will be will be in my new philosophy.....Some things you just can't change - it will just happen the way it is meant to happen.
Anyhow - Thanks for reading my blog..... have a beautiful wonderful day! :)
Meeg
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